TJ ([info]biosage_x) wrote,
@ 2007-01-13 02:04:00
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This is an open post, the first one in a very long time, because i want everyones opinion. if you dont have an lj, either make one, or just leave your name in the comment box. annon posting has been turned on, but ill figure out who you are by tracking IPs anyways, so yeah. thanks.

first of all, im interested to hear what everyone has to say on this, not just what my close friends think. i know what they think before i ask, normally. i want your opinion only if youve talked to me once in your life. you are on my friends list for a reason.

ive given up on this sad town...i cant say ive met many people who arent incredibly fake, two faced, or a combination of those and many other things.

but, im curious to here the gallerys opinion before i make my final decision.

is there anything left in this town? not just for me...for good people in general.

does anyone even care that im still here?

what do you think of me as a person. i mean, tell me, who exactly do you think i am? if you had to write a paragraph or so on me, what would you say? am i good person, or at least, do you think i am one, if you dont know me well? tell me exactly what you think of me. you can tell me you despise me, if you wish, but im interested to know what you think, none the less. if you dont like me, tell me why you think this, same thing if you do like me. i wont be offended either way, but i want you to just give me something more then "because i do(n't)"

it kinda upsets me, because i dont really expect most people to have read even this. but...maybe you actully are one of the good people, if you read this far. maybe you are the reason i keep going, and perhaps you dont even know it. two girls immediatly jump to mind, one of them barley knows me, and i wouldnt be surprised if the other one despises me, after all thats happened. but none the less, i cant help but think so so SO highly of you. i have great respect for the two of you and if i only had the strength to tell you this to both of your faces. but hey, i suppose we cant all be perfect. i turn beat red every time either of you makes eye contact with me. i always look away from shame that i suppose i feel because i honestly feel you two in paticular are in a level so far above me, it would be pure nonsense for me to mention that i think the two of you are absolutly beautiful, (no, not sexy, not hot. beautiful) on the outside, deffinitly, and from the impression ive recieved, on the inside, as well.

i am truly in amazement. this is my rant for the night. now its your turn. tell me anything and everything you think about me. there is no thing as wrong awnsers, or being harsh or polite. just be honest. thanks guys <3

TJ~


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[info]digi148
2007-01-13 07:45 am UTC (link)
I guess that includes me?
All I can think about is you and your drums.
And this town you're in sounds a lot like mine. I don't know anyone here anymore for a good reason (where I live), too many people get influenced by other bad influences, and turn into something you wouldn't really want to meet...
I'd say, stay yourself, don't dwell on your feelings so much.

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[info]biosage_x
2007-01-13 04:06 pm UTC (link)
thank you <3

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[info]ms_gamgee_89
2007-01-13 04:36 pm UTC (link)
We're close enough that you normally know what I'm thinking without me even having to say anything, but that's never stopped me from talking before, so why break the trend?

The only thing I can really say is that you're the best friend I've ever, ever had. You're here for me when I need you, and when I think I don't. You know when I need a hug or a smack in the face, and you're unerring in delivering either. You care about people, whether you'd like to or not, and that makes you good, Tj. You're smart, you've got more sense than about 95% of the world, and you are a good person. It's hard for me to sum up what I think about you like this, but I think you know everything I could say already. And about this place... there's a place for good people everywhere in the world, love; but I think you've done all that's worth it here. It's time for you to move on to someplace new, where maybe you'll finally get what you've really earned.

Love you, Tj.

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[info]sheshechan
2007-01-13 07:28 pm UTC (link)
baaaabycakes. despite how rarely I see you, I really enjoy spending time with you and it's nice to have an intellectual conversation with someone, even if 5 seconds after it's over I'm back to being stupid. :)

I'm so glad we got programming together this year, we get to spend more time together.

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[info]bobthegolfer
2007-01-14 01:03 am UTC (link)
You know, I really do get it. It was pretty much the same for me last year and I couldn't wait to get out. College is going to be good for you, Dale City tends to suck the life out of you. Or brains. Or soul. Or will to exist. Lots of things like that.

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[info]noodlz
2007-01-15 12:17 am UTC (link)
ok, so, i know you've always semi-hated me, because i can be so harsh and brutally honest, but when it comes down to it, someone has to be. i mean, the truth is, you are a genuinely good person, and that's a great quality to have. however, you are under this delusion that somehow people are too good for you. you need to get over your self depreciating, self loathing trip that you've been on since forever. it's completely normal to hate it here, dale city sucks serious balls, my senior year i couldn't wait to get the fuck out of here, and that's just how it is, and sadly, the longer you spend here, the harder it is to get out. so do yourself a favor, go away to college, meet new people, make new friends, don't be afraid to walk up to a girl and tell her that you want to take her out. don't be shy, walk up and INFORM them that you WILL be taking them to dinner tonight. if they say no, just walk away knowing that they're not worth wasting your breath on. for every five girls who turn you down, there's one that is absolutely DYING to spend your money and fuck your brains out...and cuddle with you i guess, if you're into that sort of thing. the point is, drop that nervousness bullshit, you're not out to impress anyone, let them impress you, let them be insecure. let them know that they're the lucky ones. and lastly, don't suck other people into your long diatribes about how your life is a mess because bitches won't give you the time of day, i say fuck them, because 20 years from now, when you're married to the(second) most amazing girl in the universe, they'll be in a relationship an abusive truck driver. As they're sitting there in the emergency room with their broken arm, all they'll be thinking about is what they could have had, and as they're thinking of this, you and your wife come wheeling by with your newborn, and they realize what they lost. so stop being such a fucking downer and live your life, i'm not telling you that to be a dick, i'm just telling you what you need to hear to pull yourself out of this imaginary shithole that you think your life is. when you get out in the real world, you'll WISH you had it as easy as you do now, so make life great, not retarded. much love man, keep it real tomato boy.

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[info]phyreandice
2007-01-18 04:17 am UTC (link)
Teej, let me start by first apologizing on taking so long to give you my thoughts. I care about you a lot, even if I rarely get to see you or talk to you. You are an amazing person, in personality and intellectually. I miss the fact that I don't ever get to see you, and the fact that it took so long for me to type this makes me feel so damn guilty. Just remember wandering around with you, just chatting about anything and everything under the sun makes me smile right now. I can't honestly answer you as to if you have anything left here, it's something you need to answer for yourself. Simply put, I believe you are a great person, you have wonderful intentions, and will become great at whatever you decide to focus on. Don't let drama get in the way of life, ok? Life continues after high school, it continues after college, it continues after anything that decides to happen. I miss you man.

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