I'm the glitch in the system

tjvidkid@aol.com — Tue, 28 Apr 2009 15:13:05 GMT

Can i get some opinions on pro-life and or pro-choice? What do you all think? I am incredibly curious.

My opinion will be given at the end, and I don't want to sway anyone to post or to shy away from posting. Please make your answers detailed if possible, and be honest. back up your answer~!

thanks guys.

tjvidkid@aol.com — Mon, 08 Sep 2008 19:55:21 GMT

okay, honestly, im sick of this

FRIENDS CUT IS COMING. COMMENT IF YOU WANT TO STAY!
thanks. <3

(realistically, some of you dont really have to respond as im sure you still read from time to time, but yeah. whatever.)

tjvidkid@aol.com — Sat, 13 Jan 2007 07:06:42 GMT

This is an open post, the first one in a very long time, because i want everyones opinion. if you dont have an lj, either make one, or just leave your name in the comment box. annon posting has been turned on, but ill figure out who you are by tracking IPs anyways, so yeah. thanks.

first of all, im interested to hear what everyone has to say on this, not just what my close friends think. i know what they think before i ask, normally. i want your opinion only if youve talked to me once in your life. you are on my friends list for a reason.

ive given up on this sad town...i cant say ive met many people who arent incredibly fake, two faced, or a combination of those and many other things.

but, im curious to here the gallerys opinion before i make my final decision.

is there anything left in this town? not just for me...for good people in general.

does anyone even care that im still here?

what do you think of me as a person. i mean, tell me, who exactly do you think i am? if you had to write a paragraph or so on me, what would you say? am i good person, or at least, do you think i am one, if you dont know me well? tell me exactly what you think of me. you can tell me you despise me, if you wish, but im interested to know what you think, none the less. if you dont like me, tell me why you think this, same thing if you do like me. i wont be offended either way, but i want you to just give me something more then "because i do(n't)"

it kinda upsets me, because i dont really expect most people to have read even this. but...maybe you actully are one of the good people, if you read this far. maybe you are the reason i keep going, and perhaps you dont even know it. two girls immediatly jump to mind, one of them barley knows me, and i wouldnt be surprised if the other one despises me, after all thats happened. but none the less, i cant help but think so so SO highly of you. i have great respect for the two of you and if i only had the strength to tell you this to both of your faces. but hey, i suppose we cant all be perfect. i turn beat red every time either of you makes eye contact with me. i always look away from shame that i suppose i feel because i honestly feel you two in paticular are in a level so far above me, it would be pure nonsense for me to mention that i think the two of you are absolutly beautiful, (no, not sexy, not hot. beautiful) on the outside, deffinitly, and from the impression ive recieved, on the inside, as well.

i am truly in amazement. this is my rant for the night. now its your turn. tell me anything and everything you think about me. there is no thing as wrong awnsers, or being harsh or polite. just be honest. thanks guys <3

TJ~

i always reply!

tjvidkid@aol.com — Tue, 11 Jul 2006 02:43:52 GMT

1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
4. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
5. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
6. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.

X-Posted to my Myspace.

www.myspace.com/biosagex

Jibun ni Shika Mienai Hikari

tjvidkid@aol.com — Thu, 22 Jun 2006 20:12:53 GMT

by the way, if you start a war with me, try and finish it for yourself. but its okay, i can play that game too :)

strength means nothing at ALL when you can outsmart your opponent. remember that.

heres my 2 cents

tjvidkid@aol.com — Wed, 31 May 2006 21:15:46 GMT

If its not too much trouble, i want everyone related to the band (if you dont have an LJ, just put your name in the subject bar or something) to comment to this whether you are on my friends list or not. This is public for a reason. thanks guys ~ TJ

okay, heres the run down.

congrats to all of you, yes ALL of you, that got section leader, or DRUM MAJOR. i truly feel bad for some that didnt get the postitions they wanted, myself included, but shit happens, if you cant deal with that, you should perhaps reconsider coming back on tuesday, dont bother showing up if you are going to bring the band down and fucking waste our time. i really understand feeling bad, i did, that night. i cried, honestly, (<3333 nicole for being there on the phone that night) and well...its okay. i know i wont be designated section leader, but JC and I will take care of things, not ONLY in drumline for that matter. we WILL make sure the ENTIRE band stays on point. this is our senior season and im not letting the whole fucking thing fall to shit. i really do feel bad for some people, monica and charles in paticular, those were the EASY picks, so i thought...well. easier then some. i also wish my two best friends coulda got section leader, but...well. oh well. (still, <3 nicole and allison to death, you two are by far the most amazing friends anyone could ever ask for)

now guys, seriously. Stacy Graves is our drum major, and face it, theres no reversing that decision, i say we need to GROW UP a little, and trust the decision that was made by NOT ONLY carder, but by others as well. you all know carder is not my favorite guy in the world, but we need to chill out about this. shes section leader now, and i know she is a junior and that is strange, but theres no reason why she cant be just as good and if not better then some others.

people cant be so sure of themselves, sometimes itll come back to bite you in the ass, and that goes for EVERYONE.

im sorry if i seem harsh, and i dont mean to be at all. im not singling any indivisuals out, because this is for everyone to read, the reason im making this public, unlike most of my posts. im trying to just keep the peace, so we can have a great year, and like i said, im not letting my senior year fall to shit on us. i love this band way too much to let that happen.

Quick edit = MY COMPUTER IS DEAD, you guys have to find me at school or call me to talk to you. im really bored, and need people to talk to with all thats happened so ill probably end up living on the phone with nicole/allison/justine.

tjvidkid@aol.com — Sat, 13 May 2006 03:45:11 GMT

someone said something to me tonight.

*nudges toward her* you...love... her, dont you?
Me: no...shes just a best friend.
Other Person: ...thats a lie, ive never seen you smile like that.
Me: *smiles deeply* ...

...she makes my day, every day.

its depressing i cant win her heart...but i wont give up. ive had thoughts of marching band in senior year and it being one of those amazing things where everything goes perfect and she for some reason or other falls for a guy like me...and...yeah.

tjvidkid@aol.com — Wed, 22 Mar 2006 23:52:24 GMT

okay, poll of the day/week.

should i ask her to prom (is it too late, sam said kinda but not really), yes or no and why?

for those of you who dont know who im talking about, well, you can ask me and maybe ill tell you. maybe.

Allyssa 206: NOnononononono
Biosage X: why?
Allyssa 206: She (replaced her name for the sake of privacy) goes out with Ratashak as of yesterday afternoon
Biosage X: o.o;
Biosage X: well, thats depressing.
Allyssa 206: :| yeah

imma go cry now.

tjvidkid@aol.com — Wed, 01 Mar 2006 03:33:21 GMT

if this isnt the funniest thing ever i dunno what is.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6QXUXQ8miHs

tjvidkid@aol.com — Tue, 28 Feb 2006 00:51:47 GMT

i got the jobbbbb

yay! :D

tjvidkid@aol.com — Mon, 17 Oct 2005 02:00:38 GMT

YOU CAN ASK ME SIX QUESTIONS::

1.

2.

3.

4.

5.

6.

I promise to answer them 100% truthfully

tjvidkid@aol.com — Sun, 25 Sep 2005 15:42:04 GMT

Leave your name and
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written.

tjvidkid@aol.com — Wed, 14 Sep 2005 23:35:19 GMT

I have a date to homecoming. ...

*explodes*

^^

tjvidkid@aol.com — Wed, 07 Sep 2005 00:16:03 GMT

so umm...

school started. it sucks.

but marching band always makes me feel better...no. not marching band. the people in marching band. she makes me feel better. ...we talked today. she started talking to me, actully. i saw her as she was leaving and she smiled at me and i waved and she waved back. i wanted to shout something, anything, have her come over to talk to me more, but...i couldnt find the words, she leaves me speechless sometimes. most of the time, actully. im going to ask her to come with me to the mall on friday, if she can...wants? i think i might ask her, not have emily invite her along. ill see if i can find the words tommarow.

but as emily said it best, this is one of the best feelings in the world, being like this.

tjvidkid@aol.com — Tue, 23 Aug 2005 04:14:02 GMT

1. Have we kissed?:
2. Do you want to?:
3. What would you like our relationship to be?:
4. Have we dated?:
5. Did you like it?:
6. Do you want to date?:
7. Are we close friends?:
8. Would you be here if I needed you?:
9. Are you attracted to me?:
10. Mentally, sexually, or both?:
11. Do you love me?:

Appearance
Do you like my- score 1-10
12. Face?:
13. Eyes?:
14. Lips?:
15. Body?:
16. Arms?:
17. Legs?:
18. Clothes?:
19. ass?:
20. Hands?:
21. Hair?:

Do think I'm- score 1-10
22. sexy?:
23. pretty?
24. Hot?:
25. Cute?:

Personality
Do you think I'm- score 1-10
26. Crazy?:
27. Nice?:
28. Fun to be around?:
29. Funny?:
30. Annoying?:

Would you..
31. Share chocolate with me?:
32. Spend a weekend with me?:
33. Alone?:
34. Hook up with me?:
35. Kiss me?:
36. Care if I ran away?:
37. Care if I died?:
38. Miss me if I left?:
39. Hang out with me?:

What would you do if..
40. I kissed you?:
41. You found out I was missing?:
42. You found out I was in the hospital?:
43. You found out I was dead?:
44. I cried?:
45. I asked you for help?:
46. I told you I loved you?:
47. I told you I hated you?:
48. Someone told you I wanted you to kiss me?:
49. Someone told you I had a crush on you?:

In the last week have you..
50. Wanted to kiss me?:
51. Wanted to see me?:
52. Talked to me?:
53. Wanted to tell me you loved me?:
54. Wanted to spend alone time with me?
55. Wanted to get to know me better?:
56. Thought about me?:
57. Missed me?:
58. Wanted me?:
59. Seen me?:
60. Kissed me?:

Have I..
61. Kissed you?
62. Hugged you?
63. Told you I loved you?:
64. Made you happy?:
65. Made you sad?:
66. Made you angry?:
67. Made you feel better if you were upset?:

Are you..
68. Happy you know me?:
69. Going to post this is so I can answer it and reply to you?

tjvidkid@aol.com — Sat, 30 Jul 2005 02:58:12 GMT

Ask me for my "Top 5" of pretty much anything & I will give you my list.

Then copy this in your journal and let everyone else ask you for lists.

can anyone do me a HUGE favor and strip some .exe pictures i have of some writing? or, just tell me how to. i have an idea for an icon i want to make but i need the stripping of some pictures, thanks guys. you all rock.

oh, and pwnzor that survey thing, should be fun, one person can request multiple things.

Fill this out about me!!

tjvidkid@aol.com — Thu, 21 Jul 2005 02:22:25 GMT

1. My name:
2. Where did we meet?:
3. Take a stab at my middle name:
4. How long have you known me?:
5. How well do you know me?:
6. Do I smoke?:
7. Do I believe in God?:
8. When you first saw me what was your impression?:
9. My age?:
10. Birthday?:
11. Color of my hair?:
12. Color eyes:
13. Do I have any siblings? If yes, what are their names?:
14. Have you ever had crush on me?
15. Have you ever been jealous of me?:
16. What's one of my favorite things to do?:
17. Do you remember one of the first things I said to you?:
18. What's my favorite type of music?:
20. What is the best character trait about me?:
21. Am I shy or outgoing?:
22. Would you say I am funny?:
23. Am I a rebel or do I follow all the rules?:
24. Any special talents?:
25. Would you consider me a friend?:
26. Would you call me preppy, slutty, a homie, average, sporty,punk,hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else?:
27. Have you ever seen me cry?:
28. If there were one good nickname for me what would it be?:
29. What are the 3 best words to describe me?:
30. Do i have a bf or gf?:
31. Would you ever go out with me?:
32. Have you ever made me cry?:
33. Do you love me?:
34. Have you ever loved me?
35. Have we ever been intimate?
36. If yes, was I any good? If no, do you think I would be?
37.What is one nice thing you can say about me?:
38. Do we hang out? If no,why?
39. Would you call me just because?

tjvidkid@aol.com — Thu, 07 Jul 2005 17:51:33 GMT

really weird dream last night. it made very little sense, it seemed like it would be fun though. even though i dont like Ihop.

it was shannon, me, justine, laura, brenda, erika, and juan and we were all eating at ihop, i dont remember why. i just remember that stuff happened that was really random. god, i wish i could remember. oh well.

anyways. in news that actully means something...

im leaving for niagra falls tommarow. yup. tommarow. really dont wanna go, but theres no choice in the matter, oh well, ill play megaman battle network 5 the WHOLE TIME anyways. (<3 brenda and justine) i might look over the screen to glance at the falls when we get there. lol.

ill be back a week from today, its like the 13th or something.

i miss you guys already.

tjvidkid@aol.com — Sat, 02 Jul 2005 18:37:10 GMT

rockman battle network 5, you guys need to go buy it like, right now, and someone needs to get an adapter so i can pwn all you n00bs.

but in seriousness, <3 brenda and justine for going to buy me this game. like, alot.

but in other news, of my rather boring life. i just pwnd the grass, go me! *confetti, balloons*

um, im working today, tommarow, the 4th of july, and the day after which is a day game. i have to be there at 830 AM. i havent woken up that early all summer, wtf. and i didnt know i was working tommarow, i was told it was only today and the 4th of july. oh well, the money is nice. but come on...8:30?! that really sucks, that means i gotta go to bed like a normal person, or just not go to bed at all...lol.

work on the 4th and 5th is gonna suck, i just realized, i have the parade on the 4th, gotta be up early on THAT day too, grah...oh, just so you all know...my back is fine. i have a brace now. its fine guys, really.

-schedule-
2nd : 4pm
3rd : 2:30pm
4th : 4:30pm
5th : 8:30am

have fun, ill miss you justine.
oh. and i miss you shannon. alot. ;-;

tjvidkid@aol.com — Tue, 28 Jun 2005 19:13:46 GMT

www.livejournal.com/users/biosage_x

check it out guys, completely REDONE LJ! its still being worked on, and i think im going to replace the picture with something else, but its good for now.

tjvidkid@aol.com — Sat, 11 Jun 2005 23:33:08 GMT

001. I miss somebody right now. Yes OMG
002. I watch more tv than I used to. no
003. I love olives. no
004. I love sleeping. no
005. I own lots of books. yea
006. I wear glasses or contact lenses. yes
007. I love to play video games. YES
008. I've tried marijuana. No
009. I've watched porn. yea
010. I've screwed around with multiple people at the same time. no
011. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. no
012. I believe honesty is the best policy. Yes
013. I have acne free skin. No
014. I like and respect Al Sharpton. umm, no...?
015. I curse frequently. YEA lol
016. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. No
017. I have a hobby. Yes
018. I've been told I have a nice butt. haha, yes
019. I carry my knife/razor EVERYWHERE with me. No (not anymore)
020. I'm really, really smart. NO
021. I've never broken anyone else's bones. yup, almost did though, once.
022. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. nah
023. I love rain. Yes
024. I'm paranoid at times. YES
025. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. Nope
026. I need money right now. YES
027. I love sushi. No
028. I talk really, really fast sometimes. yea, on rare occasion
029. I have fresh breath in the morning. no?
030. I have long hair. no
031. I have lost money in Las Vegas. No
032. I have at least one brother and/or sister. Yea
033. I was born in a country outside of the U.S. Nope
034. I shave my legs. LOL are you kidding? thats a no.
035. I have a twin. nope
037. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. nope
038. I like the way that I look. ...it varies.
039. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months. umm, when i told my friend what i was getting her for her birthday, cuz i wanted to surprise her.
040. I know how to do cornrows. No
041. I am usually pessimistic. No
042. I have mood swings. YES
043. I think prostitution should be legalized. Yes
044. I think Britney Spears is pretty. NO. shes fake as hell. o.o;
045. I have cheated on a significant other. No, never.
046. I have a hidden talent. Nope.
047. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. nope
048. I think that I'm popular. No
049. I am currently single. nope. not as of this morning. (=O)
050. I have kissed someone of the same sex. no.
051. I enjoy talking on the phone. yes, but not calling people
052. I practically live in sweatpants and/or PJ pants. No
053. I love to shop. no
054. I would rather shop than eat. NO
055. I would classify myself as ghetto. no
056. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders. nope
057. I'm obsessed with my LJ! yea
058. I don't hate anyone. pfft, no. i hate one person with a passion.
059. I'm a pretty good dancer. well, i can play ddr, but i cant regular dance worth a DAMN.
060. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington. oh gawd did he rape her. poor woman.
061. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. No
062. I have a cell phone. yea.
063. I watch MTV on a daily basis. Nope, i do watch the Inferno II though, new episodes on mondays.
065. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. never drinking. ever.
067. I have never been in a real relationship before. false.
068. I've rejected someone before. i guess in a way.
069. I've made myself throw up. nope.
070. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. false, sorta, i know to a point.
071. I want to have children in the future. umm, i think so, but not for awhile after marriage.
072. I have changed a diaper before. yea, awhile ago. not fun.
073. I've had the cops called on me before. hahaha, once or twice.
074. I bite my nails. no.
075. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club. nah, not officially, hes hillarious though.
076. I'm not allergic to anything deadly. correct.
077. I don't like chocolate. i like very little bits.
078. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger. no.
079. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's "Friday" movie. rofl, ive already seen "friday", its hillarious XD
080. I am very shy around the opposite sex. on occasion, not normally.
081. I'm online 24/7, at least as an away message. YES.
082. I have at least 5 away messages saved. yea.
083. I have tried alcohol before. NONONONO.
084. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past. no.
085. I own the "SOUTH PARK" movie. Nope, seen it many times though.
086. I have avoided assignments to be on Livejournal. Yes
087. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum. No, wtf?
088. I enjoy country music. not really
089. I love my best friend. with all my heart.
090. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. YES.
091. I watch soap operas whenever I can. Nope
092. I'm obsessive and often a perfectionist. Nope
093. I have used my sexuality to advance my career. lol, no.
094. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. he makes me laugh. so yea, i guess.
095. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story". ...?
096. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. sure.
097. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it. Yes
098. I <s>have</s> am dating a close friend's ex. hah, modified, and yes.
099. I'm happy as of this moment. very much so.
100. I have gone scuba diving. No, id love to though.
101. I've had a crush on somebody I've never met. Emma watson =F
102. I've kissed someone I knew I shouldn't. yes.
103. I play a musical instrument. yea.
104. I strongly dislike math. not so much math in general, hate geometry though.
105. I'm procrastinating on something right now. Yep.
106. I own and use a library card. own, yes; use, no.
107. I fall in "lust" more than in "love." No.
108. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks. nah, they are okay but still.
109. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest things ever. too much flaming, lol.
110. I'm obsessed with the tv show "Lost." seasons over. lol.
111. I am resentful that I have to grow up. not really...
112. I am an entirely different person around different people. no.
113. I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often. Yes
114. I think ramen is the best kind of food in the whole world. one of the best.
115. I am suffering from a broken heart. nope, quite the oppisite. ^^
116. I am a nerd. Yes, band nerds with all my friends.
117. No matter where I am or who I'm with, I always seem to be lonely. Not at all
118. I am left handed. Nope
119. I don't change who I am for someone else. exactly.
120. My heart resides below my feet. ...i dont understand? ill say no.
121. I am a Senior in High School. nope.
122. I enjoy smoothies. on occasion
123. I have a chronic disease ending in -itis. nope
124. I have nothing better to do with my time. not true.
125. I am listening to Radiohead right now. nope
126. Most people call me by my middle name. nope
127. I once stole a music stand. wtf? lol, as funny as that would be, no.
128. Pi confuses me. i dont think about it, math is not fun.
129. I love NASCAR! OMG NONONO.
130. I own over 200 CDs. no, downloading music, yes.
131. I work 7 days a week. Nope
132. I have mono. No.
132. I don't have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind. not true
133. People tell me I have a horrible sense of humor. sometimes.
134. I'm only wearing underwear. umm, i just got out of the pool so i dont have a shirt on...
135. I had more than one Thanksgiving dinner this year. No
136. I've driven to a different state to see a band I like. No
137. I am the most overanalytical person I know. No
138. I love seeing The Phantom of the Opera on stage. never see it--dont kill me molly.

139. I am vegan. nope.
140. I loved the Bearenstein Bears' chapter books. not my favorite, i loved the clifford books growing up.

So today was the first day i went swimming in the pool, Matt and Dominick (5, 3 year old cousins) came over, they are a handful, lemme tell you, you finally get one of them to sit still and the other is STANDING ON THE DIVING BOARD, goodness, needless to say they cant swim on their own yet. It was really nice to get in the water though. it woke me up too, im working on no sleep still and im actully not at all feeling bad/exausted, perhaps because im on such a rush of emotions, who knows...? anyways, this is two updates in one day, so i dont have alot to say.

tjvidkid@aol.com — Sat, 11 Jun 2005 15:52:56 GMT

wow, aside from getting NO sleep tonight, which was so totally worth it anyways, im REALLY happy. theres alot more i could say, and stuff i will tell certin indivisuals, dont want the whole world knowing. but yea. im gonna try and find some sleep.

im happier then you all realize, im like delirious cuz of the whole NO sleep thing, but like i said, id so totally do it again.

you grabbed my hand and i would of given my life if it ment you wouldnt let go...

tjvidkid@aol.com — Sun, 22 May 2005 16:27:00 GMT

hmm...what a weekend. it had seriously everything from tears to complete happyness, so yea.

hmm, starting with justines party...it was so much fun. i really enjoyed being there, and i knew everyone there, so it worked out and it wasnt ackward like most parties i go to. ill admit there was a bit of a misunderstanding and i was all ;laksdjflkasdjfkl;ajsdf -ish, and had a rough night. i fell asleep on my computer table. i woke up around 2 am and went to upstairs to my bed.
my room is...very strange, weird feelings in there...i dont understand it. i woke up with a very black hole and it was like eating my soul.

my mom then proceeded on banging on my door intill i woke up and saying i had to go coach my little 5 year old (matthew) tball game. i said id do it because i know my grandfather needed the help badly. Mom did let me drive home from the elementary school the game was at though, im actully getting pretty good at this whole driving thing, which is certinly good, im starting road very soon.

i got home and found out that it was aparently a misunderstanding between me and shannon, that made my day. im bad at inturpretting things i suppose. anyways, me shannon and justine then went to go see kingdom of heaven. it was an okay movie, i dunno, it was a little hard to follow at times. i got the main point i suppose though. lots of violence too, but its not like that effects me lol. then after that, we headed down to the mall, i saw like, everyone i knew there: juan, dre, reggie, erika, krissy, ryan, sam, laura, i think a few others. i played like one game, i wasnt really in a DDR-ish mood yesterday. it was nice to hang out with shannon, for that little time, all my pain and grades and home life and everything dissapeared and everything was perfect.

lets see...moms birthday is coming up, the END OF SCHOOL is coming up (yaaaaaay no more bad grades to worry about~!) then i suppose its...my birthday, isnt it...? ill be 16, i still cant belive that. o.O

tjvidkid@aol.com — Wed, 11 May 2005 19:51:16 GMT

well...today sucked.

flat out, it just sucked.

i hate being the one thats sad all the time, i really do. but...i dont know, we didnt play in band today, and we were watching napoleon dynamite, i didnt really get into it. too much other shit going on. half the class left to go to AP exams or whatever, thats when i had noone to talk to. robyn was just kinda there, another friend that ill keep nameless was flirting hardcore with this one guy, which i swear if i see again im gonna throw up over. angela was loud, like always. i just...started crying...right there, in front of everyone. i dont make noise though, my eyes just get really watery and if its bad enough the tears flow. not many tears today, ill give everyone the benifit of the doubt and just assume thats why NOONE noticed. whatever...

oh, just so you know laura, you did cheer me up though when you popped into my class, you made me smile and laugh, your good at that...thank you. <3

i dont know what else to say.

tjvidkid@aol.com — Sat, 07 May 2005 05:39:48 GMT

hmm...its 1:15 in the morning, and absolutly NOONES on the computer. so i figure ill update with this for no reason. i went on a massive downloading spree tonight, i got SO much stuff from Nami Tamaki, one of my favorite J-pop artists. She does alot of music for Gundam SEED and then a bunch of other stuff on the side. i really want to get her CD, "greeting" ill send you guys some music if you want, leave a comment, and ill hook you up.

im feeling so...affectionate...i suppose is the word. i just want to hold someone and go to sleep, but its not so simple. nothing is ever that easy. i changed my backround from my Beatmania IIDX backround to a Gundam SEED Destiny backround, its REALLY cool, but its extremly mushy, especially for me. but whatever.

i gotta go check my work schedule tommarow. god. work sucks with school, and its already getting in the way of many other things. the drumline clinic is this saturday, justines birthday/shannons homecoming is the week after, which i swear to god im taking off that friday and saturday, i dont care WHAT my mom says. This is too important. friends are more important then work of any kind. they come first. what do you want for your birthday justine, specifics are nice...@_@. im so bad at gift shopping for girls, my god. ;-;

wow, im so strange when im tired...i just want to curl up with someone on the couch/in bed and go to sleep. any voulenteers? =P j/p

well, i belive its time for bed.

i love you guys. ~TJ

oh, and also, for those who HAVENT, still please take the quiz/survey whatever (the two part one) in the post previous to this one. thaaaaaank youuuuuuuuu in advance <3 (and do both parts, for my reading pleasure)

your my shining star...flying across the clear night sky.......^_^ (its stuck in my head shut up) XD